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I have always been a christian.
I have the blessing of having 2 loving parents that are christian.
I grew up in my chruch, that i still attend.
I have had rough times and there is a year where
i just stoped believing i gave up
I thought, God wasn't helping me in my life,
I thought he was treating me evil
I thought the God everyone talks about is so wonderfil
and mighty why does he do things to me.
I still told people i was christian,
but i really kinda gave up,
i almost got into drugs and smoking
i started cussing and
i began cutting my wrists
i hated my life
i was depressed
i started blaming things on myself
when it wasn't my fault
i decided one night after i had cut my wrist that i should stop before it went to far
i started yelling at God and telling him he shouldn't have let me hurt myself
he shouldn't have let why i did those things happen i started crying and i opened my eyes and next to me in the coner of my room where i was sitting was my bible
i set my untesil down and opened the bible i started reading
out of Psalms
and i read Psalms 116
it reads
I LOVE THE LORD BECAUSE HE HEARD MY VOICE HE HEARD MY CRY FOR MERCY BECAUSE HE TURNED HIS EAR TO ME I WILL CALL UNTO HIM FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
i haven't been depressed
nor have i cut my self or thought of it
since that night
i have been uplifted and i know i need to be preaching his word at my school
i know i should stop cussing the times i do on accident.
i know i can do this because
i opened that bible on that night
now i need to open my heart everynight!
