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I was born is Sarasota, FL my mother and father semi distant not very huggy or touchy people. They did right by us but a little "harsh" in the discipline area. I used to be a never upset always sunshine little girl but soon realized that people can be mean no matter what you do. So I withdrew and became wary of everyone, and had a few close friends or so I thought. One person from high school I still talk to and not often. I moved here to be an animal trainer and get away from my negetive environment that was my home. Even when I was little guys always treated me like a toy to be used that had no value or self respect, I guess you could say only guys who liked the fact I look younger than I am ,by a lot but wasn't, kind of fit into their fantasy. I soon met ,here in Orlando, Lori and her husband Rob who helped me trust in people again and I became Christian, it was a real awakening! But I did not realize how hard it is and soon realized that just because you go to church and say you are Christian doesnt mean you are good. A lot of "Christians" lied to me and let me down and me having only these people to follow and being new at it. My friend's husband one day decided he didn't want to be "good" anymore and I couldn't believe he would do that to her, he was going to be a pastor and "good christian" was all I knew of him. Well I still went to church and "tried hard" to stick with it but since Lori had to move and no one else "seemed" like they wanted to help I looked to my unchristian extremely wordly "friend" and tried to be like her, I have had a few drinks and talked and acted like her and the "cool" people. I stopped listening to all Christian music and 98% hip hop and top 40 music, my basic nature hated hearing all the cursing and crude things they say and do but it was somewhat fun. I keep getting nasty colds lately and running short on money and things are real bad for me. So I talked to Lori today 3/25/07 and she turned me on to this site and said some Saint worthy prayers for me that I will never forget. So now I am trying to change and find good people to be around so I can have good habits again. I know only I can change my ways but I welcome anyone who is willing to help. Also I would seriously love it if anyone knew of someone, another woman who likes dogs, who needs a roommate in Orlando, near Sea World area, and is a devout and serious Christian and is quiet but likes to have fun. I struggle to trust people and have fatih due to the number of times I said "oh I can trust this person he/she is so sweet and nice" only to find they are just using me. But now I will just have to say for now I have my Greatest ally GOD as always and also his best creation yet, Lori. I know when they said "about me" you expect stats but this is me and I need help and am now unafraid to ask and wanted to lay it all out. My love and hope to all who read this and thanks for understanding. P.S. I love to ride horses and I work at Sea World of Orlando. I love to help people and wish I could work with Ty and the crew helping build houses for those who have so little. -Love me.:>
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Sabrina-TV EMMA, Smallville (Green Arrow should have his own show!!) CSI (all of them)Dancing with the Stars, Star Treks ALL, ELLA ENCHANTED, PHANTOM OF THE OPERA, SUPERMAN (ALL), SOUND OF MUSIC, SLEEPING BEAUTY, WILLOW, BLACK BEAUTY, BLACK STALLION, PRINCE OF EGYPT, ANASTASIA - MOVIES Kensington Chronicles from Lori Wick (actually any of Lori Wick), history books, anything fiction and some fact about Ireland, Christian Romances, or any other Romances that keep it clean!, anything about horses or sea animals

Rascal Flatts, Faith Hill, Josh Turner

I became officially Christian in 1999 but my grandmother was my greatest inspiration to be Christian before and after she died (she passed on when I was three). I cursed the devil for taking her that very year and cried a lot. But I grew to understand where she was and why. I still miss her and know she watches me always. That was why I was so receptive to my friends teaching me about being saved. I know fully what it means but not sure what is expected of me. I actually did have a friend in high school who influenced me greatly her name is Jessica Mattox and I believe our discussions and God's will caused me to have this dream... I have always felt as if I was being watched and not always in a good way and one night Senior year of High School the "devil" appeared to me in a dream as my "perfect man" (which I made up when I was 13 so you know hormones and all!) he should be tall around 5' 6'' -6ft, same general age, touseled blondish hair, green or blue eyes and of course a greek god like body, so of course he chose that, darn devil, ruin a perfectly good daydream!!! So demons having to be "invited" in your house and all he appeared outside (in the dream of course) sitting on a couch the size of a large truck???!! with several gorgeous blondes around him having a party, mind you my parents were popular and had parties a lot in our backyard so, yah, he has no imagination there, also we lived in the country so loads of room ok so couch party in backyard with my "dreamman" (?!) with me looking out my bedroom window to see what was going on. He motions to me to come out and join them, ya right cause my God given intuition and good nature tell me I know what you are and go away. This response is not well received however and he nixes the fake scene and comes, still in disguise, right up to the sliding doors of our patio, which are open, and says now come on you want to let me "in" dont you? Uh no creepy!! again get lost leave me alone I belong with the good side get lost. Then, still in disguise, he gets realllllyyyy mad and starts yelling and threatening me, which at this point I am aware he physically is not allowed in and has no power to change that fact, so I tell him too bad you have no right to me and you have no reason to be here or any power to mess with me. The scene changes (again its a dream but my dreams are very unusual) now I am in the house with my brothers (who made it their lifes goal to force me to watch every scary movie and then reenact them when I "tried to sleep") I have two disturbed brothers I grew up with and one half brother (long story) well my two brothers were inside with me trying to play devils advocate (but were they really my brothers or just images) and they try to jump into my body like Patrick Swayze in GHOST does to Whoopi Goldberg, all the while telling me hey its fun just join him you can do so many great things and get a horse and everything (unh so not right) I love horses but not that much I tell my older brother to shove off like I usually do when he is bossy or mean and then comes my weakness, my little brother two years younger but we look like twins, I always protect him even when he pretends to be a "Critter" (as in the horror movie that I wish never happened!!!) and scares the life out of me, my little bro actually makes it half way in and touches my soul before I freak and cast him out saying no its not you and I dont care if it is I can't be evil it is not right, scene changes again and I am back in my room looking out my window and the stupid devil has changed again this time looking like a very terrifing version of the devil in "SPAWN" with John Leguizamo (sry John if I spelled it wrong) kind of like a triceritops skeleton with pointy teeth and walks on all fours?!! whatever right? So it comes tearing towards me full speed and I turn whiter than I am already being I cant tan to save my life, and I hit my knees and turn my face up eyes closed and pray GOD help me, please make him go away! Save me! I feel a great peace and look up to see the darn thing finally left couch and wierd costumes and all. I was so relieved and thankful, it was amazing that through all that all I had to do was stop trying to do it myself and ask for GOD's help, thank goodness I didn't wait to long! I have my Grandmother RIP for being a great Christian influence and being the reason I was so sweet tempered and trusting, but that dream will forever both worry and amaze me. I was so scared and when I woke up the next morning and found a very nasty cloudy dark sky it was just to strange, was my imagination and my brothers crazy antics playing on my mind or was a certain someone sneaking around in my subconscious trying to trick me. Hmmm. Would not put it past him. Yet he has gotten me on some things, sorry GOD. But never my soul and I still resist him with every step and now with every bit of faith. But what does everyone think, I have other dreams too, some where I am surrounded by demons but can not see them but can hear them. Extremely creepy I tell you and being rescued by God's own hand, litterally a hand reaching down and pulling me away. Ick hope I never have that one again. Killer Clowns from Outer Space the most horrible excuse for a movie and the bane of my childhood, has nothing on that dream. Being surrounded by demons and can not see them, ugh. I know like real life huh, but at least you cant audibly hear the creepy things.

Trustworthy and nice, thats it. Love everyone.