Monday, January 14, 2008

 11:36 PM

A lifetime of hardships starting with my parents divorce, molestation, witnessing my mother's suicide at age 15, addictions, teen pregnancy, disease, homelessness, and much more, caused me to search for peace. My soul was tormented, and let me tell you...it is very easy to accept the idea that there must not be a God when you go
through such horrible things at such a young age.

Nevertheless, I did not give up on searching for the purpose of humanity. I am the type of person who practices logical reasoning as a means of survival. I believe that nothing is by chance, so denying God's existence was impossible. What I could not understand is why He would create us to go through so many heartaches and struggles.

Through the course of my reasoning, I gained certain understanding of why,how,what, where and when we were created. Something went terribly wrong in the heavenlies long before we were created. Our God of light...(the center for all moral consciousness) did not create evil or darkness...yet it still existed and infiltrated all that was pure & good. He did not create us human beings by chance or for no reason other than to please him. We have a specific purpose as does every living thing. Our purpose contains the eternal cure for evil.

I now have the type of peace that the Apostle Paul spoke about in Phil 4: 4-9  

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

 8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

It is my prayer for all mankind to know this type of peace which can only come through the saving knowledge of Our Lord Jesus Christ and the infilling of The Holy Spirit.

Peace Be Still In The Name of Jesus!

Godspeed,

Michelle D Starr