I grew up in a church my whole life i am a pastors daughter. i went to church almost everyday. i had a "relationship" with God everyone envied. so they thought. I had to have a "relationship" with god to make my dad look good i couldn't be a pastors kid and be myself i had to be what everyone thought a pastors daughter should be i had to live up to there standards there expectations. i did dances, sang, everything. but, i felt so empty, so alone. i tried fixing that with everything. Guys,Cutting,Bulimia. nothing worked so i got mad at god i became furious. i would always still go yo church but i would just sit there and be mad at god for 2 years. after about 1 year we got a youth pastor. he was amazing! he helped me out with everything so i thought. about 2 years after he got here my sister, him, a friend [guy] and his wife went to Hawaii. when they got back rumors started and he got mad and my dad got mad they were about my sister so they got into a HUGE fight and he started a website see, i told him everything he was like my counsler. well he started a website and put all of our information on it. my WHOLE family. information about the bad stuff we did, about out sins. so after we found out about that he decided to was going to leave. well, he left and he called me a slut and told me to give up. so thats exactly what i did i mean he had to be right. he was the most important person to me. so i got back into cutting after about 1 year people started noticing they started worrying about me. yeah right they cant possibly care about me is what i remember thinking. so after people started noticing i decided i HAD to stop that i was to obvious. so i started being bulimic agian. and to this day i struggle with it. but, i started going to this youth group and they were so real. i looked at them and how they were and i new this is what i had been looking for my whole life. i wanted to be real, be myself.  so after about 6 months i started getting really close to some poeple and thy started noticing i was really skiiny, skinnier than i should be a girl came up to me and said can i help you, can i be there for you, you're not ALONE. and from there on i started changing or at least wanting to. so, it took me awhile to open up to her FULLY. but, im so glad i did. she has helped me so much get better, and start being real with myself and others. having a relationship with god and knowing the truth through his word. im not saying im fully better but, i have been getting there i am starting couseling. and im ready to change so i can help SAVE this generation help save hearts. well, god never ceases to amaze me and he is always there when i need him all i have to do is call and he will answer. thats my testimony i hope you guys enjoyed and got encouaraged because i want you to know its never to late to change! God will work wonders all you have to do is believe and have faith. and he will never leave you or forsake you.