I’m trying to learn to stand still

I need to learn how to shut my mouth,

hold my tongue,

And let them say what they want about me.

My God stands by while they have spit at Him,

            cursed His name and hung His Son on a cross

He holds His anger and loves them still.

He waits and longs for them to come to know Him

He “hopes for the best” in spite of everything,

            no matter the number of times they have sinned

I was one

I stood saying “I love you, Jesus”

Yet the second I was home,

I would flee from Him like the disciples did,

I would have turned my back and

            I’m just as guilty as those who crucified Him

Because of what I did and had done

            was why He had to die

So I could be forgiven

The deceiver has left me scared

            which makes it hard to stand

he makes me want to sit back down

            saying I have no right to stand for Him who created me

            and I’m so weak I should just sit back down

Yet He who is in me is greater

            than he who is in the world

Those scares still hurt me now

But God, my Abba, is healing them

            and they will serve as a mark to remind me of what I’ve done

In spite of what may happen,

            I would stand up to protect any of my brothers and sisters

No matter what it may cost

I would gladly stand to do anything from

            let them know that someone cares and is  there for them,

            to die so they can live

One day I hope that I could do it for a complete stranger just to show the love of Jesus

Like the One who saved me

            He died for many,

            actually He died for everyone who would believe in Him

I want to be able to stand for You